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In My Garden by Joe Medrek
I praise the Lord and thank Him for His great grace and mercy in setting captives free! God’s timing is perfect and He knows what it will take to bring a person to that complete freedom in Him. I’ve had a past steeped in fear because of strongholds that came down through the bloodline. My son and my father’s sister’s grandson both have a type of brain damage that has severely disabled them.
I also ended up in drug abuse at a very early age. In the natural I should have brain damage myself from burning up brain cells through sniffing Carbona spot remover, and then I ended up drinking straight Seagram’s Crown Royal and ended up in the hospital with the oxygen leaving my brain. Then I spent my whole adolescence in drugs overdosing on sleeping pills and large animal tranquilizers.
I ended up having a child with special needs when I was a child with special needs that needed to grow up over night. And it hasn’t been easy. The enemy has fought me hard trying to keep me in bondage to fear and anxiety, depression, and mind battles of every sort for the last forty-one years since I got saved.
During those years I had an abortion and built my own prison punishing myself for over forty years! The Lord allowed certain events to happen that in the natural a person would end up severely fined for my driving one night and the police let me go free! Then the Lord spoke to me and said that I was free to leave the prison I created that He had acquitted me of the crime of murder!
I ended up in depression on medication and began having nightmares for a year and was led to go to a church that prayed that God would remove all my fear and that night was the first miracle in my life, which was my deliverance of the nightmares.
I was depressed because of all the guilt I had from sin. I remember alone looking in a mirror asking the Lord to forgive my sins and I felt a turn around in me where I no longer would live a life of sin but to follow Him. That burden of guilt I felt roll off my back and I was delivered of depression
Right before I got saved I used to smoke marijuana and sit outside and God would send a blue jay and I would write inspirational thoughts about Him being the creator. That bird was a symbol of joy and hope that one day I would be free.
I was a bird in a cage afraid of everything. I couldn’t go grocery shopping, I was afraid to have company or to even make eye contact with people and now I am able to worship in dance in front of whomever if I am under His anointing. I still battle shyness but the Lord raised up several people through me laying my hands upon the sick and watching them recover. One lady was brain dead and was healed and one man was raised up out of a coma.